Oh boy. If you know me at all, you know that change isn't really my thing. I love to stay in the same place and have the same friends and have the same role for a long time. For instance, I lived in Helaman Halls for four years straight with the same job. What kind of college student stays in one place for so long?? As I am sure all of you have heard from me many times already, I am in the Fall of my life. (Or one of the many I suppose.) Everything is changing or about to change. I am terrified. I don't know what to do in my new environment. The worst part about it is that I have been seeing my life as a scary almost dreary place. I have been seeing the dead plants, the cold, and the dark skies. In doing this, I have missed the beauty of change.
There are two ways to see Autumn. The leaves fall off the trees, there is no grass and here lately, it rains a whole lot. But then there is the other side of crisp sunny days and lots of exciting colors. Its really all about perspective. In an earlier post, I talk about focusing on the Sunshine. Well, in the Fall I need to focus on the beauty. Change is hard and scary, but it has amazing results. There is an alluring charm to change. Change is what shapes us.
So I can look at change as ugly and scary or I can view it as a glorious opportunity to become better than I was. When I look back to when I first left home, I was more scared than I have ever been in my life. But looking back, I know that I am better than I was in high school. I have grown and learned so much. The changes I have gone through have given me knowledge, understanding, and a firmer testimony of my Savior. I am not anywhere near perfect, but I have come a long way. I get to choose how I view all the changes in my life. I can go with it and see the beauty of becoming better than I am today, or I can see only the end of old ways and allow it to hold me back. Hopefully I can remember that life is about being happy and excited for the changes coming around the corner and the growth that comes with it.
